Friday, July 16, 2010

Clairvoyance

The night has a thousand eyes,
And the day but one;
Yet the light of the bright world dies
With the dying sun.

The mind has a thousand eyes,
And the heart but one;
Yet the light of a whole life dies
When love is done.

Francis William Bourdillon (b. 1852)

Friday, July 9, 2010

Starcraft 2 - Wings of Liberty




LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLO

PHASE 2 BETA IS NOW OUT.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

WTF?

For the very first time in this world cup,
my prediction was actually wrong.
Spain 1-0ed Germany
?????

And I thought Germany would win the World Cup
well this changes a lot of things,
Spain VS Netherlands
I'm not sure who would win at all now
Probably Spain with 70/30 chance.
But not certain at all D:

Monday, June 28, 2010

Population Zero

I was reading an article about the oil spill,

which made me rethink about a documentary

I watched a couple of years ago.

It's not a stretch to think that we will be the ones

causing our demise,

should the apocalypse truly occur.

Here's an interesting documentary,

depicting about the fate of Earth should the

human kind come to an end.




Note : This is a video that's divided in 9 parts.

Click on the link for the playlist

Saturday, June 26, 2010

URGAY

Sometimes I hope my predictions are wrong

but when it comes to soccer, they are always right qq

Goob job, Taeguk Warriors. You did your best.

You have set a remarkable record of being on best of 16

on an away game.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Republic of Korea VS URGAY

The time of test is at hand-

Republic of Korea faces URGAY..

er excuse me, Uruguay tomorrow

(8:00AM where I live).

So far, my prediction has been dead right

about Group B.

I guessed Greece game to be 2-0

Argentina 0-2, but ended up losing 1-4

Nigeria either 1-0 or 1-1 tie, ended up tieing at 2-2

So we advanced as a runner-up of the group.

My prediction on the game against URGAY? er, Uruguay?

We lose 0-2

qq

I know how both teams play, we don't stand a chance

against URGAY er, Uruguay.

But nothing is certain. Hence, unlike argentina where

I gave a 5/95 chance (5 being in favor of Korea)

I'd say this is a 25/75 game. So you never know,

we may tie the game then win from PK shootout.

If we DO win, we have a very good chance at the semi-finals

as we will be playing against either Ghana or US. :D

I hope to see Republic of Korea

rewrite the definition of soccer tomorrow ^^

I'll be rooting (or cussing massively :P)

I am not the person to be near when I'm watching soccer

I broke my headset during the game against Nigerians

because of the abrupt PK

(I threw it on the desk pretty damn hard it seems like.

I broke it in two pieces D:)

Either way,

This will be a good way to relieve stress ^^

TIME TO YELL DAE~HAN MINGUK~

AS LOUD AS POSSIBLE!!


P.S : http://clanufw.darkbb.com/random-chat-f12/republic-of-korea-vs-urgay-t953.htm

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

16강

16강!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, June 21, 2010

정대세


그렇다

그는 자국을 위해서

진정한 눈물을

흘리는 사나이다.


Final match

Tomorrow, 12:30PM Mountain time

Republic of Korea VS Nigeria

We need to either win or tie this match to advance to the best of 16.

At least it will show at a good time

Time to watch the game in the office again hahahaha

Friday, June 18, 2010

So in summary



This is what the game was like vs argentina

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Argentina?

My prediction is 0-2.

Of course Argentina being 2.

I still greatly wish that Korea would win, but this is just too impossible.

But in the event of tieing or even winning,

If we win we will go to semi-finals.

If we tie, we can hope to do very good (maybe quarter finals).

If we lose by 0-1, then it's a well played match for Korea.

I really really want to watch it but I have to leave to Denver first thing in the morning

to speak with the ambassador of Korea...

Well being the president of an association maybe isn't that bad of a thing.

BUT WHY TOMORROW QQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQqqqqqqqqqqqq

Edit : Never mind. I couldn't resist the temptation LOL.

It is 5:11AM right now and I am off to my office in Engineering building to watch the game

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

That sword you are carrying..


Click to enlarge image.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Official Broadcast

Successfully done. Still, there were numerous mistakes

but the quality of the overall commentary was way

better than the previous ones I have performed so far.

To prevent any noises, I had to speak away from the microphone

which made my voice sound really small.

You may have to turn your speaker on very high to be able to listen.

And I should've probably turned down the game volume too..

Next official broadcast will be done at 6:00PM EST

(4:00PM where I live) on June 20th, 2010


Part 1 - Shoutcast begins at 18:00. Due to technical difficulties, I had to cut the replay to two parts.


Part 2

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Practice Broadcast




Still got a long way to go qq

My microphone picks up too much noise and air sound for some reason
Probably because I have to speak so close to the microphone.

Official broadcasting will be done again at 11:00PM EST (9:00PM in where I live)

Last broadcast, I got about 20 people to watch. We'll see how many people watches this time :D

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Absolute fail



Another match I wanted to see was

England VS USA.

This would've been a very interesting game to see

But I had to sleep after watching the Korea VS Greece QQ.

But after witnessing absolute fail from England...

not so much.

Fail.

Absolute fail.

Epic fail.

(Insert adjective here) fail.

First Win

Republic of Korea,

is at the height of their superiority

in terms of a soccer team.

They have never had a soccer team as good as this one in the history of world cup.

We (I must add, easily. Greece posed no threat to us in this match) beat Greece 2-0

And now a match against Argentina awaits us.

To be honest, this match against Greece was the most important one,

since there's practically a zero chance against them

(I know how these faggots play, they sleep and have an affair with their own soccer balls.)

So in essence, we only need to win or tie against Nigeria.

We shall see how that goes...

Next one is on June 17th, 2010 at 5:00AM AGAIN...

This world cup is ruining my health...

(The lab was full of empty beer cans after the match. I should've taken a photo of it)

Thursday, June 10, 2010

WORLD CUP



THE TIME FOR OUR GLORY HAS COME.

WORLD CUP IS HERE!!!!

ON JUNE 12TH AT 5:00AM,

REPUBLIC OF KOREA FACES GREECE IN THEIR FIRST MATCH!!!

Props to ESPN for actually broadcasting the match~~

Wait

5:00AM

....

Omfg..

I either have to stay up all night or wake up at 4:30AM.

Wait

There's a bigger problem

I don't have cable in my house................

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WHAT TO DO WITHOUT CABLE TO WATCH THE MOST IMPORTANT GAME OF THIS PLANET A GAME THAT IS WORTH SACRIFICING YOUR LIFE FOR JUST TO WATCH YOUR NATIONAL TEAM PLAY IN SOUTH AFRICA WALKING THE PATH OF GLORY WITH THE HONORIFIC SPORT KNOWN AS SOCCER BUT THE GOD HAS CURSED ME WITHOUT CABLE IN MY HOUSE BECAUSE I CANNOT AFFORD AND I DON'T NORMALLY WATCH TELEVISION BUT I DIDN'T THINK IT WOULD CATCH MY FEET HERE DO I NEED TO STORM INTO SOMEONE'S HOUSE AND SAY "HEY THERE'S A FUCKING IMPORTANT GAME HERE, GTFO SO I CAN WATCH THE GAME" AND THEN BE ESCORTED BY POLICE 2 HOURS LATER JUST FOR INTRUDING IN SOMEONE'S HOUSE WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION EVEN THOUGH THERE WILL BE THE MOST IMPORTANT GAME OF THIS PLANET IN MERELY TWO DAYS LOLOLOLLOLOOLLOLOOLO QQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQ


God damn this aggregates me so much. But wait, I hear a good news from one of my Korean friend: That the match will be broadcasted via ESPN3 (Online broadcast), but only available to the subscribers of QWEST.

Again, this led me nowhere because I have Bresnan instead of Qwest in my house. But I remembered that the ISP for the University happened to be Qwest.

I get to watch a soccer game from my office? That's new.

Well if anyone hears me screaming at 5 in the morning in the 5th floor of engineering building, you know who it is.

Monday, June 7, 2010

Dinner

One of my Korean friend (hyung) invited me and my roommate (also hyung) over for a dinner. We sat there and talked for 7 hours about all kinds of subjects, including life in Wyoming, military, food, relationships all the typical stuff most Korean (guys) would discuss about when they are together.

Of all the subjects we talked about, the military and the relationship talk stood out to me the most. Every Korean male citizens are required to complete their compulsory military duty which lasts for 2 years before they turn 40. Most people completes it when they are in their early 20s. Due to my extraordinary circumstances of living in US ever since I was 12 and continuing my education, I had to put off my compulsory military service at least until I graduate.

Previously, I considered about fulfilling the requirement by working in a military-defense related job, because it would actually make use of the field I am studying in and I get paid (not great, but incomparable to regular service) at the same time, even though the length of the service is 4 years. Seeing how these two hyungs I mentioned can endlessly talk about what kind of military life they have learned, I further reconsidered my idea about how to complete my military duty. From what they claim (and I'm sure it's not false), even though the military life in Korea can be excruciating and pose a great challenge, the experience you retain is invaluable as it shapes you into a better person, potentially creating "a leader" out of yourself. The most challenging fight is the one against yourself after all.

The aspects regarding the difficulty of military life poses no consideration for me at all. Of course, I'd prefer an easier path but if that's not an option, I would certainly accept the alternative. However, what's most important is which path is most advantageous to not only myself, but to others that I care about. This is what gives me the most trouble in terms of selecting the right path. I will have to think very deeply and cautiously about this matter. I am glad though, to be presented with the other perspectives of military lives, whether biased or not.

Relationship talk was somewhat of a.. delicate matter for me to discuss about. Back few months, of the time when I was engaged, they were reluctant to share their opinions with me as they claim that I was very headstrong (more like stubborn) about marrying "the girl of my choice". Not very long, we broke up because we failed to settle our differences and truly understand each other while at the same time, I had a very hard time placing my trust on her. Nonetheless, everyone around me agreed that it was the best thing for me to do, as I am too young and am not quite in the position to be talking about something as crucially important as marriage, which can change the course of my life permanently. Ultimately speaking, I prevented myself from making one of the biggest mistakes but it was also a very good opportunity for me to realize that such decisions must be given the deepest and longest considerations with acknowledging the fact that it also affects the lives of other people that are close to you. Yes, the damage (mentally and financially) that was done to me after this ordeal was harsh but I also find it to be quite proper as my immature actions have hurt a lot of people.

The hyung that invited me over is now together with a Japanese girl whom he loves very much. They plan to get married within the end of this year. Even I can see that they are meant to be together. He said something about a famous saying which co-exists in Asian territory: "When it comes to food: Chinese. When it comes to wives: Japanese". We cracked up after hearing that, but based on what I've been hearing from a lot of people, maybe the latter part could very well be true, seeing how there has been a lot of successful interracial marriages particularly between Koreans and Japanese. Either way, this is an unrelated talk for me for time being. I need to properly situate myself into more of a stable position and become a better man before even discerning about such things. This will probably take many years.

Lastly, they asked me what I want to do with my life in general. So far, I could give out basic answers such as "I want to get a PH.D, finish my military duty, work and support my family". Then one of the hyung asked me again: "No no, what do YOU want to do with YOUR life? What is your ultimate goal? What do you strive for to make yourself happy?"

Such question at the moment, is impossible for me to answer. It makes me content seeing others become happy. It propels me to excel in what I do right now to support others for them to achieve happiness. It's not something I can achieve on my own. I am not stating that I am a type of a saint, egalitarian or even a masochist (albeit contradictory). Maybe it's the way I'm grown up, the things I've seen in my life or just my nature. I am certainly not a good person either, more of an evil person if I had to say. I've equally screwed over many people (both intentionally and unintentionally) as I helped others. Still, I want others that I care about to be happy with their life before mine, because that is the only way I can be happy.

This is why I cannot answer the question. Determined? Yes. For a purpose? Yes. For yourself? No. It's a void and a hollow prospect.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

North Korea....


그렇다...

북한에선 이것이 최고부자만 살 수 있다는 전설로만 듣던 액정콤퓨터다.

아놬ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 빛마우스, 건반드립ㅋㅋ

Friday, May 28, 2010

Wtf?

Since I've been extremely lazy (I haven't been this lazy for years) lately, I decided to get back on track on what I should be doing, starting from running everyday in the morning.

It's nice to see nobody is on track at 6:00AM, but waking up then is also pretty tough.

The problem is, now I'm just huffing and panting jogging just over a mile. During the semester, I used to be able to run 2 miles without even sweating but back then, I was more active than now since I was in the swimming club.

Just one month of laziness can destroy your body.

P.S : HEY THIS IS MY 100TH POST HOORAY :D

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Shoutcast

Due to a request done by one of my shamans in my clan (Props to frankiethefly :D), I did my very first shoutcast on a map of Fate/Another.


Quality of the shoutcast? Disastrous. At least all the viewers enjoyed the shoutcast for a lot of humorous values and game insight given by me, so I'd say it at least was not a failure.


For first 4-5 minutes of the stream, I had some technical difficulties so the actual shoutcast does not begin until then. Do note that I'm speaking to the audience directly who are watching the shoutcast.


from 5-10 minutes of stream, my shoutcast sucked ass. I stumbled on a lot of words and then said some unnecessary shit. After, that it gets bearable and then I lose focus again after 60 minutes. Shoutcasting for 75 minutes is no easy task.


Even though I lived here for long, I still have some intonation issues and a noticeable accent :/ and especially my tendency to repeat/stumble on words.


And holy shit, do I have to quit saying Uh, Eh, types of pause words.


It looks like everyone could understand what I was saying so there wasn't any technical communication error.


Next time, I'll practice before actually giving a shoutcast. Maybe this is a good opportunity to fix my speech pattern once and for all.








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Glossary:

TA : True Assassin. Black servant with white mask on.
FA : False Assassin. A servant with the origins of a samurai.

DS : Dark Saber. Tainted version of Saber (Not Nintendo DS..)
UBW : Unlimited Blade Works. Archer's Reality Marble (Ultimate) Spell.
Nine(Nine Lives) : Berserker's ultimate.
RB : Rule Breaker. Caster's dagger which amplifies all magical damage intaken by 2 times for a short duration if stabbed by it.
Bell(Bellerophon) : Rider's ultimate.


(Note : I am using a pronoun of "He/His" for all servants, even for female servants like caster, rider and saber because I am referring to the players using the servants, not the servants themselves.)

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

또 폐인모드


After summer break begun, I've become way more lazier than I ever was.

Playing Starcraft 2 until 4 in the morning LOL.

Now I'm just being delusional.

I'm walking down the street and I hear kids saying

"YOU MUST CONSTRUCT ADDITIONAL PYLONS"

But SC2 beta ends on May 31st 2010





WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO UNTIL JULY 27TH.

COLD TURKEY IS APPROACHING.

Soon enough, you will see me randomly say

"YOU MUST CONSTRUCT ADDITIONAL PYLONS

"EN TARO TASSADAR"

Note : Hundreds of people has been asking me about Starcraft 2, such as its gameplay, balance, interface and most importantly, its prospects to becoming a successful game or not. When the beta ends, I will write an exclusive post about Starcraft 2 presenting my thoughts on the game.

LOL

School Days Bad Ending - 鮮血の結末(Conclusion of Blood)


Oh yes, the infamous and controversial school days.

One game I played many years ago that really made me cringe.

Only because I didn't expect THAT to happen at ALL.
(Beats The Sixth Sense at least by a MILE)

Now that I look at it again,

I can only say WTFPWNED LOL.

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.

I don't know why but watching that scene again makes me so satisfied.

Ugh, it seems like I'm really turning into something sicker everyday D:

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

its a tarp!

So I'm chatting with my friend on the MSN Messenger

and my friend sends me a JPEG file

then asks me to pick my favorite amongst the following eight.

I make my selection,

He replies with "LOLOLOLOLOLOLO" and then tells me....

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ASDFASFOASHOQWOIHAFOFHZXOHOASFHIOAHSFIOAHSFOASIOHFA

ASIFHOASFIOHASIOFAHIOSHASIOFAIOSFIOASFHIOASFIOASFOAIZXCVZ

QWEASFASFFQWDASDASDASDASDQWEQRASFASFASFASFASFASD

Sunday, May 2, 2010

OH MY GOD LOL



THERE ARE A LOT OF CRAZY MOTHER FUCKERS

ESPECIALLY IN MY CLAN

아 ㅅㅂ 이 세상에는 미친놈들이 널려있다

특히 내 클랜놈들...


Monday, April 12, 2010

MCROLL



Japanese can make some f**ked up shit.. lol

Monday, April 5, 2010

Where do you belong??


Often, I am asked from many people of where I would like to spend the rest of my life in. Here's a little bit of an autobiography of where I have spent my life in:

Born in Republic of Korea in 1988
Lived in Republic of Korea from 1988-1990
Lived in United States of America from 1990-1992
Lived in Republic of Korea from 1992-2001
Lived in United States of America from 2001-2010 (Concurrently)

As you can see, I am what people would call, not quite a second generation but 1.5 generation, as I spent half of my life in each countries. To put it nicely, I have a deep understanding about both countries but otherwise, I'm neither a Korean or an American.

To answer the question asked earlier, I have gone through a series of vacillation as both countries had so much to offer for me. Namely, I went from wanting to live in Korea-US-Korea-US and then at the moment, Korea. You can see that I'm not a obdurate person at all.

It's truly a difficult decision for me to make as choosing one country means I have to abandon the other. Sure, there's the fact about me not being able to retain both citizenship (as Republic of Korea does not allow dual citizenship at the moment. This however, is changing) but I firmly believe that there can be no such thing as being true to multiple nations and verging yourself into it.

So what determines one's nationality? Is it Jus Soli or Jus Sanguinis? I think neither. This may be true if we are discussing legally but clearly, this is not the case (If not, a person must consult with an immigration lawyer). Perhaps then contributing to a country as much as possible to make it yours grants you a free pass? This argument is certainly invalid in the United States and to some extent, Korea. Otherwise, you would see many illegal immigrants becoming naturalized. They put up money, hard labor and often their lives to make the country theirs.

Adhering to Jus Soli, although it may be an "accidental inheritance", could you argue that the people feel some sort of spiritual bond to their "motherland"? It sounds convincing, but still a very shaky point. Otherwise, United States should give their land back to the Native Americans or Korea should get the entire part of Manchuria back. This of course, is politically unsound and ludicrous to even consider.

I will finally answer the question that began this post which hopefully should also answer the question posed about what nationality is: As of now, I would like to spend the rest of my life in Korea. It may be a country with messed up problems - those far greater than US itself, but it's a country I feel that I belong to. Previously, I have rejected the idea of living in Korea because I have only considered the negative aspects of it. But I felt foolish for neglecting the positive aspects of what this country had to offer for me.

I'm still very young and inexperienced about many social affairs. I cannot be firm in my decision quite yet, as things may change down in the line. But it never hurts to dream and work as hard as you can at it. I'm something of a Utopian in a sense.

Beauty of Korea.. only those who has been there can truly see it.

Friday, April 2, 2010

Fail...




What the fail...?

It would've been better just not to put the English names on the menu....

육회 드립....

Friday, March 26, 2010

OMFG..


I talk to my advisor today..
I find out what my schedule will be like next semester...
OMFG
IOFASHSAFHISAFHOIWQHQIOF

KILL ME NAO

RAGEEEEEEEEE

Monday, March 22, 2010

Ask a Korean!

Today, I came across a blog, written by a very outstanding intellectual (much more than myself) who refers to himself as "The Korean". He understands just about every single aspects to what it means to be a Korean and what the country, "Korea" is all about.

As such, this blog talks about VIRTUALLY EVERYTHING about Korea. Here are some particular ones I enjoyed very much about reading:

  • Why is Starcraft so popular in Korea?

    Being a hard core player of Starcraft ever since 1998, I already knew the answer to this but "The Korean" covers more in depth and gives many examples to why this has been the case. He even makes a connection to the board game "go" - which is something I had not even considered of.
  • Why do Koreans hate Japanese?

    Republic of Korea, one of the most racist countries in the world, has a keen tendency to hate everything about Japan more than any other countries in the world. This is an extremely controversial topic in Korea so if you ever plan to live in Korea, I'd say this is a must read.
  • How do I attract a Korean men?

    HAHAHA.. This one was the funniest one to read because it's very true and the facts listed there certainly does not exclude myself.

    But on a serious note, some of the remarks made me think deeply such as this one:

    "1. Remember that majority of Koreans are racists. That means that they despise people whose skins are darker than them. Southeastern Asians are darker than Koreans. You do the math. It's safe to say that in many cases, your relationship will not be based on respect.

    Even if your guy is not racist, his parents, relatives, and friends are going to be racist. That makes a long-term relationship or marriage extremely difficult. At some point, your guy will be forced to choose between you and everyone else he knows. Guess which one he is more likely to choose?"

  • Why do Koreans want to get married so early?

    This one was just an interesting reading for me because it's actually the opposite in my case. Neither myself or my parents want to see me get married anytime before I finish my school (Which will be at least by late 20s, because I still have a military duty to complete). I just wanted to get a feel of "contemporary" reason on why this was the case for rest of the Koreans but not me.
  • Healthcare System in Korea?

    I talk shit about Korea all the time. Believe me, I do - There are MANY aspects to which makes our country a very shitty place to live in but there is ONE thing I highly praise our government for and its the healthcare system of Korea. I've already talked about how shitty American healthcare system is and lightly touched on the healthcare system in Korea but never talked about it in details. Here's your answer.
  • America, the least racist countries of the world

    And finally, the most important read of the day and what surprised me the most about "The Korean's" wisdom and insight. This is a must read to any other ethnicities. Some of the points he makes are ad hominem and to some degree - a post-diction but nonetheless, most of what he speaks of are entirely true.
To close up, I'd like to answer one of the questions I was asked many times - just in many different forms. "WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH KOREA?". Here is a very satisfying answer I finally found:

"Korea is a unique place; no other country in the world brought itself out of utter poverty to a leading economic power within a few decades while surviving two devastating wars under two different countries' occupation. Many things about Korea require a radically different mindset from any other country’s mindset to understand properly – which is really what being exposed to a different culture is all about. Often, many people fail to get into that mindset, and instead wonder why Korea/Koreans are so "irrational" or "stupid". (Again, remember -- if the only explanation you can think of to explain a group of people's actions is "stupidity", you are the one who is stupid, not them.)"

Saturday, March 20, 2010

법정스님


법정(박재철) 스님, 1932년 10월 8일-2010년 3월 11일
Monk BeopJung (Jae-Chul Park),
December 8th, 1932 - March 11th, 2010


믿지 않는다 하여
자신의 자식이라 하는 인간들을
지옥불에 던져버리는 당신네들의 신들을
난 당최 이해 할수가 없다.

차라리 난 지옥에 가서
당신네 신에게 버림받은
그 억울한 영혼들을
구제하겠다.


난 종교가 없다.

솔직히 말하자면 대부분의 종교를 무진장 싫어한다.

그런 내가 유일하게 존경했던 종교인이 바로 이 사람이다.

만약 세상에 정말로 천국과 지옥이 있었다면,

이 분은 두번 생각도 안 하고 지옥에 갈 것이다.

예수를 믿지 않아, 지옥에 간 중생들을 구원하기 위해서라도 말이다.

이것이 바로 종교라고 생각한다.


우리가 지금 이 순간 전 존재를 기울여
누군가를 사랑하고 있다면
이 다음에는 더욱 많은 이웃을 사랑할 수 있다.
다음 순간은 지금 이 순간에 태어나기 때문이다.




I cannot understand your gods at all
for they throw humans into the fires of hell
who are supposed to be their sons and daughters
Just because they did not believe.

I would rather go to hell
and save the victimized souls
who have been forsaken by your gods.


I'm an atheist.

To be honest, I dislike most of the religions in this world.

But there's one practitioner of religion whom I respect greatly and its this person.

If heaven and hell truly existed,

This man will choose to go to hell without even thinking twice.

To save his sattvas, (companions) for not believing in Jesus.

This here, is what I think to be a true religion.


If you love someone to the
best of your ability on this very moment,
you will be able to love more neighbors
in the next moment.
Because that next moment is born from this moment.

Friday, March 19, 2010

MTV.........

YOU WANT TO SEE SOME FKED UP SHIT?

Almost made me puke.

Friday, March 12, 2010

전 경북대 총장 박찬석씨의 말씀입니다.

정말로 오랜만에 가슴에 닫는 이야기를 들었습니다.

저는 나중에 나이들어서 부모가 된다면, 이런 부모가 되고 싶습니다.

지금도 비교적 가난한 곳이다.

그러나 아버지는 가정형편도 안되고

머리도 안되는 나를 대구로 유학을 보냈다.

대구중학을 다녔는데 공부가 하기 싫었다.

1학년 8반, 석차는 68/68, 꼴찌를 했다.

부끄러운 성적표를 가지고 고향에 가는 어린 마음에도

그 성적을 내밀 자신이 없었다.

당신이 교육을 받지 못한 한을 자식을 통해 풀고자 했는데,

꼴찌라니...

끼니를 제대로 잇지 못하는 소작농을 하면서도

아들을 중학교에 보낼 생각을 한 아버지를 떠올리면

그냥 있을 수가 없었다.

그래서 잉크로 기록된 성적표를

1/68로 고쳐 아버지께 보여드렸다.

아버지는 보통학교도 다니지 않았으므로

내가 1등으로 고친 성적표를 알아차리지 못할 것으로 생각했다.

대구로 유학한 아들이 집으로 왔으니

친지들이 몰려와 "찬석이는 공부를 잘 했더냐"고 물었다.

아버지는,

"앞으로 봐야제.. 이번에는 어쩌다 1등을 했는가 배.."했다.

"명순(아버지)이는 자식 하나는 잘 뒀어.

1등을 했으면 책거리를 해야제" 했다.

당시 우리집은 동네에서 가장 가난한 살림이었다.

이튿날 강에서 멱을 감고 돌아오니,

아버지는 한 마리뿐인 돼지를 잡아

동네 사람들을 모아 놓고 잔치를 하고 있었다.

그 돼지는 우리집 재산목록 1호였다.

기가 막힌 일이 벌어진 것이다.

"아부지..." 하고 불렀지만 다음 말을 할 수가 없었다.

그리고 달려 나갔다.

그 뒤로 나를 부르는 소리가 들렸다.



겁이 난 나는



강으로 가 죽어버리고 싶은 마음에

물속에서 숨을 안 쉬고 버티기도 했고,

주먹으로 내 머리를 내리치기도 했다.

충격적인 그 사건 이후 나는 달라졌다.

항상 그 일이 머리에 맴돌고 있었기 때문이다.

그로부터 17년 후 나는 대학교수가 되었다.

그리고 나의 아들이 중학교에 입학했을 때,

그러니까 내 나이 45세가 되던 어느 날,

부모님 앞에 33년 전의 일을 사과하기 위해

"어무이.., 저 중학교 1학년 때 1등은 요..." 하고

말을 시작하려고 하는데..



옆에서 담배를 피우시던 아버지께서

" 알고 있었다. 그만 해라.

민우(손자)가 듣는다." 고 하셨다.


자식의 위조한 성적을 알고도,

재산목록 1호인 돼지를 잡아 잔치를 하신 부모님 마음을,

박사이고 교수이고 대학 총장인 나는,

아직도 감히 알 수가 없다.



This is a story told by Chansuk Park,

the ex-president of Kyongbuk University.

I haven't heard a story this touching for the longest time,

so I took my time to translate it.

If I ever become a parent,

this is the kind of a parent I want to become.

We used to live in a very poor neighborhood.

Even though we didn't have the money,

My father sent me to Daegu (City in Korea) so I could receive a better education.

I went to Daegu Middle School, and I hated studying.

Class 1-8. Student Ranking 68/68. I placed dead last.

Having the report card in hand and heading back home to the country side,

I had no confidence to show it to my father.

I wanted to resolve your resentment about not receiving an education

by doing good in school,

but dead last....

Just thinking about my father, who sent his son to school

even though he has nothing to eat for himself

since he supported me with the little he got from farming,

I couldn't bear the thought of guilt.

So I took the report card that was written in ink

and changed my class ranking to 1/68.

My father didn't go to school at all

So I believed that he wouldn't be able to figure it out.

As the son who came back from Deagu returned,

Close friends of father's came around and asked "Did Chansuk do well in school?"

My father replies,

"Well we have to see how he does.. but it seems like he somehow placed first in class ranking"

"Myongsoon (Name of father) has a really good son.

We must celebrate if his son placed first in ranking"

Back then, we were the poorest amongst the neighborhood.

Two days later, after washing myself up from the river,

My father butchered the only pig we have

and then called many people around in the neighborhood and held a party.

That pig was considered as our number one wealth.

An unbelievable situation has occurred.

"Father..." I called out, but I couldn't continue.

and then I ran out.

Behind me, I could hear people calling me.



Being terrified,


and wanting to kill myself in the river,

I tried to hold my breath inside the water for a long time

and I also hit my head very hard with my fist.

What's really shocking is that I changed after that incident.

Because that situation always lingered inside my head.


17 years later, I became a professor at a university.

And when my son just entered the middle school,

which I was 45 years old by then,

I went to my parents to apologize for the incident that occurred 33 years ago.

"Father.. and Mother.. about my class ranking back when I was in middle school...."


I was about to explain what happened and then my father, sitting right by her had interrupted me-

"We already knew about it.

You don't have to say anything.

Minwoo (Grandson) might hear you."


Knowing about the forged report card,

and still holding a large party with our most treasured pig,

Even as a doctor, a professor and the head of a university-

I could not even dare to understand my parents' minds.